Saturday, December 26, 2009
; 3:23 AM
Everything in my life is kinda a screw up now...i can only blame myself for becoming what i have became today....CHARLOTTE wake up....and stop dreaming and hoping for somethings that WILL NOT HAPPEN....STOP THINKING OF THINGS THAT ALREADY HAPPENED....if only...i had a time machine....i will tune it to year 1991....and...change the fact that i ever ever will exist...better then being a ???? identity person on this earth...i'm tired...do not know what is my purpose...yea...i'm repeating the words i said to someone who i confide in that day...i'm trying to change me...but...its hard...i'm struggling to fall asleep every night...cause once i close my eyes...lots of unpleasant memories just keeps playing on its own...its as if closing my eyes will turn on the "flashback" switch...hope that i will meet someone who will change me...cause i cant change myself...i cant use drinking to always numb myself....it doesnt even work at all!i'm becoming more like ???...is it a good thing or a bad thing?tiring...
