Been SO long since i blogged.Didn't had much to blog about actually,just school and the usual life.But starting from this week i feel stressed up.I want to study and get better grades this time, i don't wanna repeat modules and live a meaningless life.Lastly,i feel inferior when i'm with you,and i hope i won't feel much of that if i get better grades.:(
When things are getting too perfect,the imperfection will come soon...and things are really getting perfect now.only too perfect...

Went to marina barrage with loved ones on friday!it's one of those fun and best outings!loads of pics were taken with estella's camera andwe enjoyed ourselves alot!after barrage...headed to vivo to celebrate jess's 18th birthday!bought really nice tarts from that fruit tart shop downstairs.had a really huge appetite that day!omg...here is the list of food i ate!breakfast i made a big big sandwich then honey roasted chicken...2 sushi(one spoilt one!)...ruffles...biscuits...choc baby...BK double mushroom swiss upsized...AHHH!!!then yesterday ate mee soto and a plate of nasi lemak for lunch...think i'm getting eating disorder!
get well soon!!!i'm really worried about you...:(

Back from camp...I LOST MY VOICE!:( just came back from the doc's and she said i'm having a throat infection...not sore throat.should be a relief for me...cause i hate sore throats!having another camp on the 23rd...not sure if i will be well enough to go.I should catch some sleep now...having a splitting headache...><

This time i'm not sure if it will last long enough...but...i'm sure by now i have already put my heart in it...my greatest fear have yet to come.and i'm really hoping that it will not come because i may not ever heal from it.are you my last?i really have no idea...i hope things will never change,but i'm sure they will someday...

iT's a holiday and i spent almost the whole day rotting and studying quite abit at card's house...sometimes organizing an outing is kinda disappointing...you expected a holiday and thought most of the people can make it but end up not much people will be interested to come...i got to admit yes sometimes it's boring...whatever we plan might not be as interesting as you guys expect but that's because i'm running out of ideas!every week either me or someone will plan something and i get requests and suggestions...then some who don't like those ideas will not come...now i'm gonna take someone's advice...i'm not gonna force those who do not wanna come for the weekly outing...when we wanna go out any time then we plan...no more weekly outing from now onwards...just organise a outing once in awhile...i'm sorry but i really don't wanna get disappointed again..i really miss those old days...

Have the sudden urge to blog...no idea why too...it's not a good sign though...cause everytime i have the sudden urge to blog means i have things clogged up in my mind which i can't bring myself to tell anyone...well...think my happy side is fading soon...no idea why too...sometimes i will just tell myself it's bloody pms,but i know...it's more then that.I have to just reflect and search deep in myself and find the answer...when the searching starts,i start to get into my "dark" corner...start throwing unnecessary temper at anyone,start looking for someone to throw my temper at...getting into crappy arguments...and sadly i always have these "search myself" sessions once every few months...and ALWAYS it's near exams that i get all these crappy stuffs clogged up in my brain...maybe it's the stress that make me think of these things...no idea why i'm always finding unnecessary troubles for myself...am i plain dumb or is it that i just have too much unspoken troubles kept inside me for too long?

just watched the sister's keeper and it's a damn good movie... almost used up one whole box of tissues...maybe it's cause i had a kinda similar experience?but all in all it's really a very good movie...shall blog about what i've been busy with lately...had dance for fund which was a dancing competition which involves the whole school.took part in it and surprisingly came in second and got a best theme award...kept having practices and rehearsal for almost the whole first week of school.didn't really had time for family...feel kinda bad...so i shall be staying at home for the weekends...was popo's birthday today!so went out for dinner with family after that went back to popo's house to chat,play cards and tv...still miss grandpa till now...supposingly to celebrate his birthday today too...maybe that's just life...people come and go...